While Christmas is often described as one of the most anticipated times of the year, surprisingly it was the polar opposite for an anorexic patient — whereas the fancy lights and decorations and rollicking carols were among the actual enjoyable elements of the supposedly merry festival, the table-full of turkey and gravy and chocolate cake were unfortunately perceived as monstrous, threatening and wicked.
To all little angels and fighters: how do you want to live your life?
I used to have a large appetite in the past but about two years ago, I started to suffer from eating disorder and depression. Since then, not only did I lose my appetite, I became anti-social as well. I refused to eat and gave up on myself. My body gradually became weaker and saw a drastic loss in weight.
Although I had a fat body physique since I was small, I never used to pay much attention to it. But all had changed when I entered secondary school, because I began to recognize the problems that obesity brought me. My classmates began to throw me disapproving looks and my confidence in the past gradually disappeared and was then replaced by low self-esteem. I have thought about dieting many times. However, due to lack of perseverance, there was never a considerable change in my body shape. Luckily, I still had a couple of friends at school. So I thought as long as I have friends, I didn’t care how the others looked at me. As a result, I ignored the problem.